It has been absolutely brutal to get blog posts out of me this week. I don’t know what’s wrong with me! Have I already run out of things to say? Not possible. Just ask my family.

I started this blog with hopes of disciplining myself into writing every day, and developing and honing my skills. So far, I don’t feel very honed.

But a friend of mine lent me a very interesting book that has made me laugh and given me a little insight into the universal challenges of the writing process. This writer has made me feel much better about my bouts with sitting in front of the laptop, staring at a blank screen and being so clueless that I can’t even type my own name.

Here are a few thoughts from her book. Crack me up!

…You turn on your computer, you bring up the right file, and then you stare at it for an hour or so. You begin rocking, just a little at first, and then like a huge autistic child. You look at the ceiling, and over at the clock, yawn, and stare at the computer again…

…You are desperate to communicate, to edify or entertain, to preserve moments of grace or joy or transcendence, to make real or imagined events come alive. But you cannot will this to happen. It is a matter of persistence and faith and hard work. So you might as well go ahead and get started.

(Bird by Bird: Some Instructions on Writing and Life, by Anne Lamott)

This is how I have felt this week, especially the rocking.

So I’m just going to sit here and stare and think, and think and stare, and keep asking the Lord what He would have me say. Meanwhile, thanks for hanging in there with me.